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Post by nijil-xnv on Mar 28, 2012 11:33:24 GMT -6
I wanted to let you guys know that yesterday, March 27th 2012 I had to face the hardest test of friendship any dog owner will ever have to face. I laid my brilliant, amazing and loving Westie to rest in my grandparents beautiful garden after his long hard battle with kidney failure.
Thank you for all your help, you gave me three extra weeks with my best friend that I would not have had otherwise and there's no way to express how much that meant to me.
Now as I sit in my room, that is far too quiet and there's no nose in my arm asking for my touch I know what alone feels like but not empty. Oskar gave me far too many good memories to leave my heart empty, even if it is broken for a time.
Oskar enjoyed killing stuffed sheep, digging in the yard, cheese burgers, sun shine, ear rubs, belly rubs, licking feet and my pillow, playing with his alien, burrowing in blankets, taking over the world and most of all me.
He used to wait for me to get home and on his last day, I was called home from work to come to his side. My brother said Oskar only moved when he heard my footsteps. I know now that Oskar knew what needed to be done, he was just waiting for me, as he always had, to tell me himself it was time. So, the day ways beautiful, the sun was shining and he fell asleep in my lap, head at my heart, just the same way he picked me out thirteen years ago he close his eyes for the last time.
I love you, Oskar, my Moose, my perfect little dog.
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Post by The-Savage-Nymph on Mar 28, 2012 12:03:04 GMT -6
I weep with you. I never knew Oskar, but I cry for you and the friend you lost, I really do. All I can say is this: He'll never be gone as long as you keep him in your heart. I send my love to you from Germany and hope you'll be better, knowing that someone knows just too well how you feel right now.
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Post by asianorange on Mar 28, 2012 14:03:04 GMT -6
I'm so sorry. I don't know what else to say. Reading about him, I feel like I know just a little bit about him and I'm reminded of my cousins' dogs that have somewhat been adopted by me and how sad I would be when they pass. I'm so so sorry.
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Post by salierisantfarm on Mar 28, 2012 17:28:31 GMT -6
Oskar sounds like a great dog. I'm glad that you have these special memories of him to hold in your heart forever. I'm sure that he'll be with you in spirit, always.
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Post by nessundorma345 on Apr 1, 2012 12:53:27 GMT -6
So sorry for your loss! I have a dog myself, and as annoying as she can be at times, I can't picture life without her draping herself all over the couch or wandering underfoot. But be glad for all of the good times you had with Oskar anyway.
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Post by wulphe on Apr 1, 2012 20:40:02 GMT -6
There's not much I can really say that hasn't been said here. I'm not good at dealing with loss. I lost my cat a few years ago, and I know it'll never feel exactly the same. I grew up with him always being there. It certainly gets easier as time passes. I hope you hold on to all the positive memories and focus on the good. Remember that he was happy and regret nothing.
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Post by nijil-xnv on Apr 1, 2012 23:27:14 GMT -6
Thanks you guys for all your kind words. You're all wonderful.
I packed up with toys and dishes today. Well, all but his water bowl, because I'm going to put flowers in it since it's ceramic... It was hard bringing them from my room to the basement.
Honestly, at the time of my writing this I'm in the "numb" phase of my grief. It's been that way since Thursday, I really think my brain is letting my body deal with it right now because I've been so sore it's unbelievable to the point that I actually mention it (since I have fibromyalgia, I'm kinda used to being sore). But I think my brain is trying to keep me "safe" until it feels that I can fully deal with him not being around. It's so weird, he's been my constant companion ("You were once my one companion, you were all that mattered...") so I think I just don't know what to do with myself so my mind is just not doing anything.
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Post by briggspower on Apr 2, 2012 10:06:39 GMT -6
I'm.... I'm very sorry if I wasn't by your side during this time, but I wasn't aware of your sorrow. (stupid school) I know what means a friend, especially a loyal friend. I can never imagine my life with my beautiful and wonderful cat, Romeo, who is more than a friend to me. A friend who listens to all the pain, anger and hatred I hide within my heart. Now you need to rest and think properly, but calmly. Keep Oskar inside your heart. Sorrow cannot kill memories.
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